i feel bad

today, the second i got bck, i turned on my pc and chated with minh.. and he said i've changed.. i guess i cn feel it too.. since bekka came to my life, all i did is talk to her and forgot all my frens, van and vivian and yen anh.. they were the one hu actually brought me up to life.. even julie says so.. every single person says i've changed.. i dun wanna change! HELP ME! :'(( i wanna go home, i wish all this could end.. but i guess it's just reallity huh? so, i'm planning to tell my frens why i've been acting odd lately and say sorry , i dun give a damn if i have to neil down on my knees to beg for their forgiveness, cuz all i noe is that that have completed my life since the day i step on that skool.. though rebbeka cn still be my fren :) she is nice though bt i was kinda surprised to see a part that i didn't have when i came first to the skool :O i wish all of them could be besties and live happily like i did with them. basically, now i think is that i have to choose a part which i never ever want to, i love all of them.. i cnt just let one go cn i? i guess the truth is just the only way huh?

-rainbow-